Let’s see, where do i start? The first part of the year has been tough for me. the last couple of weeks, however, may have been the hardest two weeks I have had to deal with in my entire life. I won’t go into my personal issues at this point (maybe later) but I can tell you one thing. Life throws unexpected things at you when you are least expecting them. Talk about being in a rut, well that is where I am. I am trying my best to get out of it but everyday it seems like I say, “I’ll get out of it tomorrow.” To kick start myself back into it I did some ball exercises here at home today. I worked on a lot of core and I did some ballsquats. Over the last two weeks I have felt these two areas get really weak from the inactivity and I don’t want to even try to go outside without getting a little soreness in those areas so that I know that they still can work first. I would love to say I am back or I will do this or that tomorrow or this weekend but I can’t. It seems like every time i say something like that I jinx myself. So I will take it one day at a time and go from there. I said I was having maybe the hardest time of my life right now earlier and I meant it, however, I saw what has happened to people like Mike Tyson and Scott Schoeneweis and I realized that things could be much worse so who am I to feel sorry for myself right now? Let’s hope this pep talk works and let’s hope I can stay focused on the task at hand from here on out. I guess in a month or so we will know.