I don’t know why I’m writing this right now but this is a blog about me and my journey so I feel this is my outlet to get some things off of my chest. I’ve learned some hard lessons over the last couple months with the last month or so probably being the toughest. There are two ways I could have gone, the right way or the wrong way. For a while I was choosing the wrong way and then some things started to click and Ihave made the turn towards the right way. I have had a me against the world attitude for the last 10 or 11 years, not surprisingly this coincides with the weight gain. I have to think that played a part in the way I have acted over these years. I was blind to it even though it was brought to my attention on numerous occasions. The light bulb in my head has finally gone off and it leaves me asking myself, “What the hell was I thinking?” I’ve burned a few bridges over this time and starting today I am going to start working on burning those bridges back up. I wish I could say it is going to be a hard thing to do but it is long overdue so the only hard thing has been realizing the mistakes I have made. Change is coming for me, not only physically but mentally. I’m a work in progress. I’ve been up since 3am in deep thought, it is 6am now. I am going back to sleep for a while then I will get up and clear my head in the gym for my second leg day of the week and my second blog session of the day. I’m feeling very positive and hopeful right now, better than I have felt in a long, long time. Who would’ve thought I would get all of this out of exercise?
Well the second leg day didn’t happen today, I woke up feeling just too beat to do anything and I feel after seven days in a row it is a good time for a break. I still have Friday and Saturday this week so no worries. I had to come back and blog though because I said I would. One very brights spot in my day today was talking to Mom. We haven’t had a talk like that in probably over a decade, at least not one that sunk in for me. I know she will never stop talking to me, I just have to listen. Something I will end with that she told me that I will think about whenver it is needed. “The only difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude.” I think that says it all.
Okay, I promise tomorrow will be about exercise.